Silent screams

Heartbeats were taking the inner route to reach my ear and i was feeling the danger breathlessly even before it could escape my heart ! I can't, i just can't climb down, silent screams had filled my mind and soul but i was helpless at a great height with almost straight stairs.

And suddenly i felt a tingling sensation between my legs. That's it, i'm right here in my bed, at some 2 feet height from the floor, its 8 in the morning and above all i need to pee badly !

So its a smooth landing on the grounds of reality, i'll make and serve tea and that too for only me ! Off white ! The image of a cute little girl exclaiming in a tv commercial came to my mind as i noticed the effect of smoking on my teeth. Anyway, it can't help me to quit smoking as i don't look in the mirror more than once or twice a day !

It takes about an hour to finish tea and bath on weekdays but on a sunday clock slows down as the upcoming minutes have no job assigned to them.

Its good actually to have no task at hand all the time eventhough i am still struggling to make myself free from thinking bout the future. 'Living in the moment' has been a dream, maybe i should make it my new year resolution !