Passed through the memory filter

2010 is beginning in about 6 hours from now and i'm getting emotional saying goodbye forever to 2009. So here i'll attempt to recall the days that have now settled inside my memory cells after passing through a memorable events filter.

I lost 27000 Rs. in one day, gained 17000 Rs. in one day, said "yes" to marry a girl and then denied when she also agreed, got back to 10 cigarettes per day before completing my treatment for chest infection, bought a gas cylinder in my own name and started to plan cooking (plans are to be executed in 2010) at my residence, was told to get out of office for denying orders - all these are memorable, some painfully though, in the sense that i can recall them now.

And then there are some minor incidences that qualified to pass the memory filter. The usual scolding from dad with an explicit question that whether i'm a man or not, working in the office till 11 pm where most of the staff don't have work during stipulated duty hours, attending yuva unstoppable events, getting back my scooter from traffic staff on a sunday night at 9 and on another sunday afternoon watching it carried away while standing just 30 feet away !

Although it can't be termed as one event, but my increased interest in blogging helped me awaken my dormant mind during the year. i realised the power of unity when i was banned from participating in a community of a social networking site. The all day long online accusations and my defending arguments will remain in the memories of many of the participants as the most interesting trial of their life.

I see it as a year of revealation of contradictions that have been driving my life aimlessly for past few years. I stopped thinking about studying completely but learned to stay relaxed even after not doing a single fruitful activity whole day.
Hopefully the upcoming days will provide me a chance to learn more and make my progress visible this time !

Complementing the missed heart beats !

Oh shit ! My heart skipped a bit as the engine stopped suddenly. I was stuck amidst a jungle of cars, bikes and buses for about half an hour. Just one or two hundred meters to go and i'll be out of this mess, i was thinking moments before my scooter's engine went silent. Luckily it was ok, it roared again and the excitement complemented the missed heart bit.

Maybe the chilly winds hitting my body iced my mind and i kept driving thoughtlessly to find myself in a heavy traffic jam !
A new experience to write on my blog - i was thinking while heading home after getting out of the jammed road !

Affair kaise kare ? - advice from a Software Engineer

September 2009

me: hey gd mrng
Rati: hi gm kaise ho?
me: ok ok. gf nai mili ab tak :(
3 saal se khule saand ki tarah ghum raha hu lol
Rati: love aaj kal lol
me: bt thts true for me. i hv been living alone away frm parents for past 3 yrs bt still m single :(
Rati: hmm.. mujhe pata hai :(
me: to kya karu ?
Rati: faadi
me: faadi kif fe par :D
Rati: kifi bhi ladki fe
me: wo to hai, end me kifi bhi fe kar lunga bt try to kare achhi ke liye :P
Rati: to karo naaaaaa
me: where to start ? i hv no group no acquaintances :D
Rati: to banao na ab
me: no experience :(
raaste pe chalti ladki se kaise baat kare ? office me to sirf budhau hai. aur kahin aana jaana nahi
Rati: wo tumhari old gf thi uska kya hua?
me: koi nahi thi
Rati: aur bola ki baad me detail story bataunga
me: okk. wo love story nahi thi, wo office story thi
Rati: acha to ? kaha hai wo ab ? she got married kya/
me: :D
Rati: tum nahi karte usse chat ?
me: ek baar try ki thi
Rati: so..
me: maine scrap likha tha
Rati: k..
me: "sunti ho"
Rati: lol
me: bhadak gayi
Rati: to..
me: lol
Rati: :D obviously
me: fir ek baar bada jhagda hua tha
Rati: .......
me: wo lumbi story hai :P
Rati: batao na
me: kya ?
Rati: story yaar
me: yaar :( nahi kahungi :P
Rati: kahungi ?? :-/
me: oopss PJ chat room me prakruti ki chat chal rahi hai na ;)
dekho jao. interesting :P
Rati: tum hi ho prakruti, tell me the truth plz
me: main apne muh se nahi kahunga bt u r a smart gal :)
Rati: hmm..thank god u accepted :)
me: whn did i accept :P prove frm our chat lol uske kaafi ladke deewane hai
Rati: wo tum hi ho
me: dont break their heart plz ;)
Rati: i cn bet nythng. mai kisiko kuch batane wali nahi hu
me: muaah thts a gud gal :)
Rati: lol par tumne mujhe pehle Q nahi bataya ?
me: bataya tha i think :(
Rati: nahi, tumne sindbad k baare me bataya tha
me: okk anywy un dono ka chhodo mera kya hoga lets come back to reality :)
Rati: hmm
me: tum batao kisi anjaan ladki se kaise dosti kare
Rati: time poocho, ya kuch bhi. aisehi
me: ok kuchh bhi :D
Rati: par agar ladki interested ho to hi
me: fir aage ?
Rati: to aisehi baate karo yaha waha ki
me: ok if she's responding bt if not thn i lose my mind :(
thts a big problem. tumhari story batao to hw did u make bf. starting se
Rati: mera kaha hai bf ? :P
wait a min. batati hu, ruko jara. call aa raha hai
me: time to log mujse poochte rehte hai sale. ladki ne nai puchha aaj tak :(
aur badi prob ye hai ki main almost always fans se ghira rehta hu to conscious bhi ho jaata hu :(
Rati: fans ?
wait call

14 minutes later
me: kitna call karegi ??
Rati: haan bolo
me: kya bolu ? teacher tum ho. aage lesson padhao
Rati: hmm...
me: affair kaise kare :P
Rati: hmmm....
me: ek kaam kare. hum dono ek drama khelte hai
Rati: tum seriously kisi me interested ho??
k...
me: samjo tum anjaan ladki ho
Rati: fine
me: raaste pe khadi ho
Rati: k..
me: i ll try to talk to u
Rati: but ths isnt funny ok
be serious. fine ?
me: meri heartbeat already badh chuki hai :D
Rati: lol
me: ok start
Rati: agar tum dimaag me kuch soch rahe ho to ( ) isme likho ok?
ya 1… 2 … 3…
me: hello ye palika market kidhar hai ?
Rati: start
aage se right
me: wahan spidy ka showroom hai kya ?
Rati: hoga shayad. mujhe theek se nahi pata
me: tum kaun si sandle pehnti ho ?
Rati: khani hai kya?
me: :( cry (bhago)
Rati: aisa koi poochta hai kya?
me: to kya poochu :( pehla sawal ready kar sakte hai, aage kya :D
Rati: hmm.. tum poochte mai yaha pe naya hu. plz aap mujhe waha tak chhod sakti hai kya? (wid a really innocent expression on ur face)
me: innocent :D
great idea
Rati: :D
me: chalte chalte baate bhi ho sakti hai
Rati: haan right, got it?
to shuru, u ask me first
me: aur batao kya puchna chahiye
Rati: umm..tumhare baare me batao..uske bare me mat poochna
me: wht ?
Rati: else she will b sure ur interested
me: uske baareme nai puchho ?
Rati: kuch bhi. mai yaha pe naya hu, bohot probs ho rhi hai
me: r u serious ?
Rati: nahi.. itni jaldi nahi..
yes. wo q batayegi tumhe.. stranger ko..
me: muje fanswa to nahi dogi :P
Rati: to better hai tum tumhare bare me batao pehle
nahi :P
kuch bhi batao.. mai yaha kaam karta hu etc
me: mera plan to uska naam kaam puchhne ka tha :D
Rati: chhoti baate u can ask her. like whr do u wrk ?? engg kiya hai kya? ok... aisa kuch.
dont ask whr do u live, wo baad me. at 2nd or 3rd visit
me: thts wt i meant. naam kaam to puchh sakta hu ?
Rati: haan. naam nai, naam baad me. kaam is k
start karo na
me: achha hua main to garbad kar deta :D
Rati: :D wo batayegi bhi nai, kyu batayegi ?
me: ok get set go
Rati: kisi anjaan aadmi ko apna naam ?
yes. shuru karo.,,
me: hiii
Rati: hii se nahi baba
me: grami kitni hai yaha ?
Rati: matlab kal hum mile the kya ?
this is our 1st visit ok??
me: hello bolu ?
Rati: 1 2 3 start
Nahi. a smile is fine...
me: hello yahan std booth kahan hoga ?
Rati: smile bhi nahi
(ye theek hai) aage se right
(ye bhi :P)
me: aapke paas mobile hai ?
Rati: slappppppppp
me: aaooo.. mummy :(
Rati: kick
me: na bolna tha
Rati: listen
me: slaappp kyu itni si baat pe lol
Rati: dont kid around ok
theek se, we start again
me: arey par mobile se ek minute baat karne ko puchhta tha na main
wts wrong ? mera discharged tha lol
Rati: to age bhi bolte na.."aapke paas mobile hai ? mujhe baat karrni hai ek no. pe" aise
to usi sentence me add karte.. y givin time to thnk
me: haan wo to obvious hai
Rati: nahi hai
me: ( crying)
Rati: agar wo pehle sochti ki ur askin for her no. aur immediately nahi hai bolti to ?
me: (trying to hold on)
Rati: tumhara nxt explanation ka upyog nahi na
me: mere paas hai, aapko kisi ko call karna hai
Rati: oh fine..
Rati: yes i hav cell, urgent call karna hai kya?
me: (lol aisa nai puchhegi anjaan ladki)
(urgent hoga to hi koi raaste pe puchhega na lol)
Rati: (agar mai hoti to poochti)
me: (she'll look with suspicious eyes)
Rati: (hahaha very funny)
me: meri frnd aane wali thi yahan bt i cnat find her
Rati: achcha
me: i hv to knw where's she ? can i call her for a minute ?
Rati: ok. no. bataiye
me: 9*********
Rati: here
me: (i think muje apna mobile switch off karna padega )
Rati: (lol) (mere saamne mat karna)
me: (not responding ya switch off aayega)
ohh no ab kya karu, 2 tickets hai mere paas
Rati: (lol)
me: aap chlaegi movie :)
Rati: (plz stop it) yahi anewali thi na.. ruko thodi der
me: i can’t wait now, showtime to ho gaya hai. ab nai aayegi :(
Rati: to jao akele aur ek ticket black me becho... kamayi ho jayegi
me: lol
Rati: (aage?)
me: black ki kamai se to aapki company achhi rahegi :P
Rati: (lol) x-(
me: main achhe ghar ka ladka hu
Rati: ( u knw.. 1 baar mai ek frnd k liye ruki thi raaste pe to ek aadmi aaya tha.. pooch raha tha will gimme compay ramkrishna hospital tak.. m new here)
me: black ? chiii
Rati: (ohh plz stop it now)
to mai bhi paraye mard k saath movies nahi dekhti chiiii
me: ok thn intro kar lete hai. Main paresh hu, ur name ?
Rati: rati (hum kaha pe hai btw ? bus stop?)
me: ( i dunno, most probably multiplex ke aas paas)
tum kaisi movie pasand karti ho ?
Rati: (aise Qs nahi poochte stupid)
me: :( ( to kya poochu )
wht do u do ? tumhe koi kaam to nahi hai na abhi ?
Rati: ("tumhe koi kaam to nahi hai na abhi ?" ye nahi hota to chalta)
m studying, 2nd yr comp. tum job karte ho kya?
(look we r talkin on a bus stop ok.. whr we see each other daily)
(tht is y we r talkin... else mai bhaav nahi deti aise hi kisi bhi baat karne wale ko)
me: job ? yes u can find me in my office frm 10 to 5 lol
(ye kya baat hai :( main to totally new ladki se mila tha lol)
Rati: (nai.. ladkiya kisi se bhi baate nahi karti hai.. hum dono 1 bus stp pe more thn 2 months tak same time pe aate hai.. by face hum dono ek doosre ko jaante hai.. isliye m talking..ok?)
me: (u killed the fun yaar, bt u r right if roj dekhte hai thn chappal khane ka darr kam hai lol)
(bt tht means ab jitni ne muje dekh rakah hai usi me se choose karna hoga )
(so sad :( )
Rati: (haan right)
me: (maine job ka bataya, ur turn)
Rati: (tumhe ek mail frwd karu kya? love story type hai.. padh lo.. how the guy approaches the gal.. u will get sme tips)
(bataya na maine.. engg kar rahi hu)
me: (lunch time, baad me story badhate hai, vaise itni baat kaafi hai mob no puchhne ko ;P)
Rati: (nahi hai)
me: (ok nahi hogi par dubara mile to baat to karegi na ?)
Rati: (haan karegi.. smile bhi karegi)
me: (thts great, fir to invite bhi kar sakte hai kisi program k liye )
Rati: (nahi)
(not so fast kiddo)
me: (itna fast nai yaar, thode din baad)
Rati: (nahi.. first b good frnz.. uyske baad)
me: (ok bt frnd kaise banege ? baate karenge roj ?)
Rati: (bus stop pe roz milte hai to.. thodi thodi baate)
(matlab baate karte waqt nervousness nahi hona chaiye dono k beech..like frenz)
me: (frm 2nd time nai hogi ye meir guarantee hai mind it)
ok gotta go eat :) see ya
Rati: cya

Perspiring in a cool winter evening

Everything went so smooth until the afternoon. Tea was ready before i had brushed my teeth, my lunch was prepared and served by mom instead of male hotel workers and i had plenty of tv channels to surf in search of charming smiles, bewitching eyes, sensational curves etc.

Sounds boring, isn't it ? Exactly the same were my feelings as i had no idea of the thrills and action coming up my way. We had almost reached the bus station and my brother lost control of the bike due to a surprise move of the rickshaw ahead of us. What an anticlimax - crashing down just seconds before landing ! Luckily we were not riding an aeroplane and i got only 3 red bruises which looked like bindis that indian women rarely wear now-a-days.

Anyway my immediate target was to get rid of my brother fast as i wanted to have a cigarette after about 18 hours. So i let him go back home without worrying about my injury.

Few minutes later, i was on the expressway to ahmedabad with too many conflicting thoughts racing through my mind - long term plans like the status of my carreer and pressure to get married. Include short term targets like what to do in the sunday evening and whether there is any job waiting for me on monday. Finally i gave up the exercise to solve this multi-variable equation and slept for an hour.

So I'm almost home ! After leaving my parents' home in Vadodara, it felt like a second homecoming ! I so wanted to pee in my own toilet with its door open but the fact that i had parked a scooter and not a helicoptor in the ST stand postponed the ritual !

Within minutes, of course after having my routine tea with a cigarette, i began driving back to my home which actually is more like a restroom between two working days ! Just a few seconds drive on the crowded rode and comes the bad omen - caught for not wearing helmet !

i'll always be a soldier of fortune...

27th March, 2008

me: i love u sofi
Sofia: gm
me: i said i love u
Sofia: okies, whats wrong with saying good morning
me: good morning :)
i was in love with you frm day 1 n kept thinking bout hw to reach italy all the time
Sofia: ru kidding?
me: jst try to understand my feelings
Sofia: me too
always doing that
me: u wanna cm india for me ? please come soon, i m dying here each day
Sofia: now i feel im growing older
me: wthout you
Sofia: and the songs that i have sung
echo in the distance
like the sounds
of a windmill going round
guess i'll always be a soldier of fortune
me: for last few months i cant sleep when we dont chat
n dont worry i ll b loving u even when u celebrate ur 100the birthday
Sofia: that was a song
that was going on the radio
which i love
ru joking with me today
me: so
today is world theatre day :)
Sofia: its not 1st april yet yaar
me: tried to do little drama bt dont think worked much :(
Sofia: adjust ur calendar
no, drama is ok, always works with women
esp indian
me: ur almost indian :)
i maynot come italy bt still i love u
Sofia: i will come to india but what difference will it make
me: sex
Sofia: do u think so
me: sure
we re close bt the physical closeness has no alternative :P
see ya later… time to see pretty ladies shopping
Sofia: what?
me: means lunch time :(
Sofia: oh
ok

56 minutes later

me: kahan gayee juliet....

50 minutes later

me: miss call me when u come online n wanna chat

10 minutes later

me: where art thou, sofi ?